I've missed you, princessa (Jocelyn)

Luna fiddled with her mother's engagement rings whilst walking around the village park with her crow, Nero on her shoulder. She breathes deeply and pulls out a piece of paper. She had one person in her mind and that was Jocelyn. She missed her so much and just wanted to talk to her. 

To Jocy,
I'm in the Village park in Godric's Hollow...please meet me here. 
I miss you....


L.V.
 
She wrote quickly and gave it to Nero who nudged her cheek, taking away the tear that was slipping down unknowingly. He flew off to Grimm Manor to deliver the message. Luna closes her eyes as the setting sun shone around her. She leaned against a willow tree and waited.

Jocelyn walked up the Village park and saw Luna leaning against a tree, Jocelyn looked around as she had a feeling someone was watching her or following her. Jocelyn walked a little bit faster and stood still in front of Luna. Jocelyn was not looking very healthy, she was wearing short shorts and a top with flipflops.

"You wanted to meet me?" Jocelyn asked, still looking around her before returning to Luna again.

Luna looks up to see Jocelyn and her eyes widen. She looks unhealthy. She gets up and puts her hands on either side of Jocelyn's face, looking at her closely. ''I've missed you...and are you alright, princessa?'' She said, worried about the girl she cared a great deal about despite their bad past. She tucks a strand of hair behind Jocelyn's ear and her eyes filled with pure concern.

Jocelyn let Luna grab her head in both hands. Jocelyn sighed, should she tell him everything? She missed Luna too but was Luna really caring about her, on the party Luna was there but the two never spoke a word together. As Jocelyn pulled out of Luna's hug, Jocelyn sat down in the grass and the shadow of the tree. "I have been better but you know living with like only boys is not very easy." Jocelyn admitted. Thane, Dragon and Hades were all gone almost every day, Kronos and Legion were always together, Jocelyn took care of everything on her own. Jocelyn rubbed her face and yawned.

Luna hears the sigh and her heart clenches. Can't you see i really care about you? She thinks to herself. ''I'm sorry i didn't speak to you before this...I guess it's pretty cowardly to send you a message, huh?'' She says sighing. She hears Jocelyn's words and looks at the floor. ''I urm...don't know what that's like actually...'' She says and sits down on the floor, leaning against the tree again. She sees Jocelyn yawn and she tilts her head. ''You're tired? Have you slept at all?'' She asks, worry filling her voice again.

Jocelyn looked up at Luna as she asked the question. No she hadn't been sleeping since everyone was away from the house and she was scared. "No i haven't slept in two days, well maybe two hours during the day on the couch but not at night. It's like someone is luring at me, looking or following everywhere i go, last time i looked out of the window in the evening there was a man or a boy walking around the house and suddenly he looked up and smirked. The creepiest thing i ever seen in my life, i don't dare to come out of the house anymore, not even in the garden." Jocelyn looked around and then back to Luna. "I told Thane but he smiled, kissed my forehead and told me, we have equipment to kill the boy or man you describe in seconds if he ever touch you but i can't come into that room so how can i ever protect myself when they are not there?" Jocelyn was pulling grass out of the ground.

Luna listens to her and her eyes narrowed. Her body tenses with the need to protect and all of her marks pulsed. ''I said this when i met you, Jocy...I will protect you, princessa when no one else can. I don't sleep at all so i'll be around...Just call Nero..'' She points to the crow. ''And i'll be there.'' She says with honesty. She wanted to keep her promise. Yes she hurt her but she would've been killed if she didn't.

Jocelyn nodded, she felt safe with Luna but she hadn't told her everything, she wanted to tell Luna but her brothers didn't know it either. Jocelyn looked up at Luna. "Promise you won't tell Kronos and Legion because they are going to freak out. After the third task, the one with the saving the one you loved, i totally freaked out and then i met my biological father. Zack grimm is still alive but i told him that i can't have him around me and he has to prove himself to me first." Jocelyn looked away and sighed. "I lost control of myself, the only thing i wanted to have was the most amazing time at Hogwarts but it turned out to be a complete nightmare. I wasn't myself anymore and i was broken and empty and...." Jocelyn couldn't bring out the words but she had too, she was this far with telling Luna. Tears brimmed in her eyes as she looked up at Luna. "I.....found a dagger and i cut myself numerous of times with it, it felt so good, i felt so free like i cutted all the things that happened out of me but then someone found me and brought me to the hospital. Thane and Hades were there to pick me up, i'm still exhausted and now even more because i don't sleep." Tears rolled down her cheeks, Jocelyn sniffed and wiped away her tears. "I haven't told Legion and Kronos because i'm scared and we don't have the same relationship just like at the start, when we met. I don't know what happened but he is going to be so angry with me." Jocelyn sniffed.

Luna listens to Jocelyn and her heart broke. She wipes her tears and looks into her friend's eyes. ''I won't tell 'em but you're going to have to at one point. Hogwarts will get better and trust me...the last task...tore me apart. I felt like dying seeing you, Kronos and Marvolo up there almost dying. You aren't the only one who's cut themselves! It feels so good but it's a bad thing...'' She shows Jocelyn her hips and there laid many scars. ''Don't be scared..I'll be there when you do if you want! I intend to stick around now, princessa...i've missed you far too much. He won't be angry...I mean he must understand what you are going through. You've fallen to the ground but ya gotta get up and brush the dirt off.'' She says, hoping she's helping. ''I've missed you so much, princessa...'' She whispers and kisses her forehead.

Jocelyn widened her eyes as she saw Luna's cuts on her hips but she was confused about it, why would she do that again as she promised Thane and Hades not to do it ever again. "I won't ask you to do it with you Luna, i promised Hades and Thane i won't do it ever again." Jocelyn closed her eyes as Luna kissed her fore head and she sighed. "She was tired but it felt nice to have such a talk with Luna, she opened her eyes and smiled. "I'm glad i came here today Luna, i have missed you too. I didn't like the party at all but maybe that was because i didn't know it and i was pretty tired, i woke up from all the people downstairs." Jocelyn pulled herself up. "Could you bring me home, i don't feel safe on my own." She asked Luna biting her lip.

Luna laughs. ''I didn't mean when you cut, i meant when you want to tell someone about it.'' She listens to Jocelyn talk about the party and she smiles. ''Understandable...I mean your house was filled with adults, people you didn't know and some ya did. I would've spoken to you but Kronos kidnapped me!'' She grins and hears her request. She gets up and nods, brushing off the dirt on her legs. ''Of course i can...wait...you feel safe with me?'' She asks with happiness in her tone. She looks at Jocelyn with a bright smile.

Jocelyn smirked at Luna. "You shouldn't be making so many noises next time." Jocelyn didn't know why they were in the room but she was just messing with Luna. Jocelyn nodded at Luna's question, hugging her tightly. "Yeah i guess you could say i grew up and i couldn't blame you for what you did to me, it was the fault of Sirius." Jocelyn pulled out of her hug. Out of nowhere a dark look appeared one Jocelyn's face. "I couldn't believe that my brothers actually invited him after all what he has done to me!"

Luna smirks and laughs. ''Sorry...Just couldn't help myself.'' She winks and feels Jocelyn's arms wrap around her. She hugs back just as tight and smiles. She listens to Joceyln and looks at her face, not shocked by the dark look that appeared on her face. ''He has changed from the Sirius then...he's broken and sad. He told me to hurt you...I regret doing so. If i could turn back time, i wouldn't have hurt you.'' She admits looking at the grass, knowing that if she didn't hurt Jocelyn, she wouldn't be having this conversation.

Jocelyn looked a bit surprised that Luna protected him but Jocelyn knew she could expect that from her. "You think i should forgive him and just forget about it as if it never happened? You know that the cutting was not only because my two brothers were murdered for nothing just because he was simply there or just someone was annoyed. My brothers are fools to invite him in just like they invited Rodolphus Lestrange and Regelus Black. If it was me that got hit Sirius would be dead, dead and gone and no one would know about Sirius disappearing. I know you protect him but i can't forgive him what he has done and neither should he!" Jocelyn felt irritated, she roughly brushed her clothes off. "I have to go, no one knows i'm here alone, if Hades doesn't find me in the house, it's not going to end well for me." Jocelyn didn't want to talk about the stupid friends her brothers made and invited in the house were Jocelyn felt safe but after they got in the house, Jocelyn felt weird to be in the house, she couldn't protect herself.

Luna listens to Jocelyn and looks at the ground, kicking a stone. ''Sirius has been there for me, Jocy...He's the reason i'm still here today! I wouldn't have survived that tournament without him but i understand. I will not talk about this anymore...'' She explains. She looks up at her, seeing the irritation and she sighs. ''I said i'd walk ya back and i'm going to do so...I wish to protect you, princessa so i will.'' She looks into her eyes and holds out her hand.

Jocelyn took a deep breath and looked at Luna. "I will find my own way home, this was a mistake to come here and to tell you everything. I thought i was happy to have you back but maybe this was too soon. I want to start over and not have the same things from last year, i can't do that nothing happened between us, Achilles changed to Kronos and that is your fault, you broke my brothers heart. You were perfectly fine with it and Sirius made you this, you changed so much, I missed you and Achilles, i helped you get him. I wish i would never gave you the push because you ruined it!" Tears streamed down Jocelyn's cheeks as she turned around to walk away. She was confused, Luna didn't see that Sirius was the one who ruined her not saved her.

Luna listens and tears prick harshly at her eyes. Her hand dropped slowly to her side as all of her friend's words crash down on her like a stormy wave. ''Was it a mistake? Was it really? You said you missed me and now meeting me was a mistake? I know i broke Achilles' heart and i hurt everyday staring at Kronos but ya know what!? I'm happy with Kronos! I was heartbroken when i had a miscarriage with his child! People change, Jocy...You have to.'' She hears her last words and her heart just shattered and a dark glaze appeared in her eyes. ''You wish i never got with Achilles? I was willing to give him up for you! I loved him before i even knew his name. Sirius didn't turn me into this. I turned into this because of all the bullshit i got in life. I would kill myself if people didn't need me. I'm here for everyone else but you don't seem to care at the fact that i'm happy with Kronos and he's happy with me. I love him more than i love my own twin who by the way, hates me because i'm with Kronos and almost had his child!'' She admits and tears stream down her pale cheeks. She just admitted that she was meant to have Kronos' child. Luna's eyes were wide with pain.

Jocelyn turned around, she heard her whole story but this wasn't about Kronos, this was about Sirius. "Yes it is a mistake because you don't even see it! This is not about Kronos or your undying love for him this is about Sirius Luna! "Sirius did this to you, he made me step away from you, from my brothers, from everyone and here you are! Protecting him like you're his puppet! If you found it horrible to slap me, to break my jaw then why do you still like him and that is the reason i just step away from you and my brothers. Everyone thinks he is the amazing boy who can every kill look like a freaking accident, you don't see it! I wish i had killed myself that day because of him, i'm not stronger than him and i still have to look him in the eyes every freaking year on that stupid school and my biological family just accepts him like he is the golden boy. You don't know how that feels. Just i didn't mean to offend you with Kronos but just leave me alone, live your life but don't save me, protect me or search for me at the house when you visit my brother. I'm sorry but i can't be friends with you if you are friends with him." Jocelyn walked away, this was enough for her. She will still be in trouble with Kronos but she didn't give anything about that anymore.

Luna bites back a growl and just stares blankly. ''I'm sorry but i will not choose over you and Sirius when you both mean shit loads to me!'' She begins to start and then she just shakes her head. ''Fine...but if you ever feel the need to talk to me, go ahead but do not suggest choosing. I can't live without either of you...'' She sighs and keeps shaking her head. ''I promised to protect you...Maybe you should learn that i no longer protect the Blacks but i have changed my duty to protect the Grimms and any other people linked to your family. I can't stop protecting you. I'm always there even if you can't see me.'' She watches as she walks away and Luna walks to a black motorbike that sat Belledona Thorpe. Luna sits behind her and buries her face in Belledona's shoulder blades who drove off to the Valkyrie Mansion. Luna told her not to ask questions and she respected that.